having slept less then a few hrs..
im awoke once again...

stared into space...
for a long time..

& suddenly,
eu guys shd give it a guess.
to wad happened to me...

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i guess,
im no longer needed le bahx..

today. is the 1st day..
he didnt cor or msg to me.
neither was my cor nor msg
returned...

i w8-ed and w8-ed..
till i fell aslp...
i woke up.. frm time to time.
checking my fone..
hoping that.. he might cor/sms..
but, im oways..
left with disappointment..


i dun hab the courage..
to login maple..

im afraid. to see wad i fear to see..

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do eu still remb...
wad eu promised me b4?

i said. if 1 dae..
im no longer ever needed
nor wanted by eu animore...
i wanted eu to tell me so.
&, eu agreed and promised me..

reason being..
i dun wanna be kept in the dark.
i dun wanna be the last to know.
i dun wanna be left alone w8-in.
i wanna hab an answer...

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yes. i admit.. all this may just be..
nothing but virtual...

but to me.. it aint just that...

yes its only virtual..
but feeling are real.. it aint fake..
its dere itself.. its a reality...

eu may say i only know the virtual him..

yes.. but as times goes by.. eu will..
get to know.. for who and what he is..
i can tell it.. he's for real...
&, that's when i start to fall for the..
*unknown him*, eu might sae it tat way..

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i wonder-ed happened to us..
maybe.. it was me who drove eu away.
maybe.. eu realised that we are impossible?
maybe.. eu're tired and sick of me...

i really miss those times..
where we spend together..
i really miss those days..
where we accompanied one another..
i really miss those calls..
where we could chat till morning..

i really miss the voice of eurs..
i really miss the way eu like to make me *laugh*..
i really miss the suprises eu gave me..
i really miss the things we did together..
i really miss the way eu said eu miss me..
i really miss the word ilu said from eu...
i really miss everything that related to eu..

&, i really miss you so terribly...

-

i know it well and clearly..
that we didnt spend much together...
but all is remb-ed by me...

maybe.. im just being stupid bahx?

even if.. im really no longer needed..
animore.. by him..

the feelings i had for him...
is here to stay.. its for real..
cos i can feel it strongly...

&, im gonna let this be the last..
of the last of wadever...

im gonna lock it up forever..
till maybe later of time bahx? idk..

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ps: i never once lied to eu.. and i nv will.. cos i know eu hate liars.. i nv will want to be hated by eu..


& Mr RCWM,
iloveyou ;; imissyou badly -

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