im tired. i dun wanna believe in love eva again. this shd be the last tym. ;) seriously. maybe. im just dwn on my luk in love? lols. idk. im seriously wondering hard. ytd was still so sweet. hahas. and todae. everything just chg-ed. maybe. i shd just take back my words bout wad i sae ytd. im lazy to edit post nw. so. yea. ;)

i dunno wad went wrong. but. maybe. he just suddenly. wanna put a stop to it i guess? strangly. this morning. tat stupid feeling. was right after all. y am i oways so... senstive to wads going to happen? this aint gd at all. i hate it. -_____- it maybe good at times? idk. gahhhhhsss..

his promises. his love. his wadeva. maybe its all just a lie? idk. im trying to stop think bout it. everything was just the same like ytd. but. wad went wrong? i reali dunno.. if his purpose was just to play and toy me. he did it. ;) i shd praise him. for trying reali hard to gain my love and trust. or maybe not. idk? im feeling reali lost right now.

sms-ed him this evening or so. no replies. i w8-ed dam long. but still to no vail. tried not to think much. and went in audi. plaed with jater di. when it was quite late at night. i sensed something was wrong. but di consoled me. telling me not to think so much. maybe he was busy. yea.. but im still kinda wry. and i went to his blog. and im right. ;) im kinda hoped i didnt knew his bloglink. but at the same tym. im glad. i read it..

maybe im stupid? idk. i guess im afterall.. cos i cried. after reading his blog. i wonder and ponder. was all those he said just a lie? i.. seriously dunno. i want some ans... but im afraid to ask. and i bet he wouldnt even tell.. ;)

this will be the last time. i wont believe again.. at least. not for now.. maybe. in the future? im seriously tired.. and sick of all this craps.. im totally giving up. im... not a toy.. bye love.. im locking my heart up. ;D maybe building up walls? lols.. i dun wanna fall in love again for this period of time. maybe till later bahx.. when ima *strong* enuff.. ;)

i think. ima gonna go flirt ard at most.. till i get better emotionally.. ANYONE WANNA BE MY FLINGS? ;DD

ps: how i hope.. i am cold harted.. tat would be so nice..
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